Welp. We are less than a week away from moving to Sydney. I'm feeling a lot of things. I'm excited, scared, nervous, happy, stressed, anxious, sad, unsure, overwhelmed..but mainly excited.

Of course we are super happy and excited to be doing this. We chose to do this. But that doesn't mean that we don't have doubts or worries.. that we aren't going to miss our family and friends. However, this feeling that I have-- a combination of all the things I listed above-- is not new. I have felt this a few other times in my life.

I felt it before I left for college. I chose to go to a school where I knew no one in a big city where I knew no one. A plane ride away from home. I will never forget the sinking feeling when my parents dropped me off at my dorm room for my first night alone. It's that "oh shit" feeling... you know?

I felt this before I left to study abroad in Spain. Heading to a country where I didn't know the language.. by myself. No friends or family for thousands of miles. Four months of unknown.

And I kind of felt this when I realized John and I would one day get married. I'm sure he felt it before he proposed.

All of these decisions-- to go to DePaul for college, study abroad in Madrid, commit to John for the rest of my life-- were the BEST decisions I've ever made.  And so all the things I'm feeling now tell me that this will also be one of the best decisions of my life. Some people go their entire lives without experiencing this feeling--- because it's scary! It makes you feel crazy and sad and happy and anxious all at once! It's risky!

But this feeling has taken me to some pretty awesome places and introduced me to some pretty amazing people. So I'm going to embrace and trust in this feeling.. it hasn't let me down yet :)